- Swimming at the YMCA. You always wanted to ask the lifeguard if it was okay to have your goggles and if it was okay to jump in.
- Swimming in our own pool. You struggle to come up for air (your body is so dense and you tend to sink!) but you swim nonetheless.
- Your propensity to be naked. Whenever you build forts in the living room, you immediately want to take your shirt off. And your other clothing is not usually far behind.
- Traveling to Michigan together. We went from the pool to the beach to the grass to the pool to the ice-cream store.
- Traveling to San Francisco together. You are so full of life and curiosity. I love watching you take in the world around you. You loved talking about going over the Golden Gate Bridge with your dada.
- Getting to see you at school every day.
- Reading books to you at night and practicing sandpaper letters.
- Hiding from Tate under the covers.
- Listening to your jokes. "What do you get when you put Tate and Alina together?...Poop!"
- Finding the Wildflower Center together.
- Double bubble baths every night.
- Building a garden together and harvesting all those watermelons.
- Adding to your overflowing nature bowl.
- Asking you to stop trying to hold the chickens.
- Listening to all your songs: "I Am a Leader" (to the tune of "This Land Is Your Land"), the tune from Golden Girls, and
- Listening to you talk about all the map puzzles you do at school.
Monday, March 2, 2015
You are a gem. At your birthday celebration at school, the teacher asked the children in your class to go around the circle and ask you questions. One child asked, "What is your favorite thing to do at home?" And you said, "Cuddle with my mama." Two more children asked you the same question and your response was the same.
You melt my heart.
The thing is, you are not clingy or needy. You are fiercely independent and full of your own ideas and your own way of doing things. I try to step back to let you do things your way.
You've grown so much this past year. Your explanations are so complex and detailed. Your ideas are so developed and thorough.
We've had another amazing year together, and I am extremely grateful to get to live my life alongside you. Some of my fondest memories of you this year include:
You shine so much light into our lives. We are eternally grateful for your beautiful presence. Thank you for sharing your self with us.
Here's the letter I wrote to myself before going into labor with Henry.
Here's Henry's birth story.
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
According to Montessori theories of child development, children start demonstrating a readiness for practical life activities between 15 and 18 months. I feel badly that I haven't sufficiently supported Tate's development in this area. He's definitely ready! The other day I handed him the pizza sauce and the spreader, and he applied the sauce to our pizza crust. He can also transfer laundry into the machine, carry a child-sized basket from the bedroom to the washer and dryer, and put away his clothes and shoes. I bet he would even help wash the dishes if I could muster up the patience and time to support him! It's amazing what little children can do. They are capable of so much. It's easy to let months go by before realizing they are capable of something because they grow faster than our perceptions of them do.
Supporting children to engage in practical life activities around the home does so much. It helps them develop focus and concentration. It helps them master the ability to follow multiple-step directions, which prepares their brain for future academic learning. Further, it helps them develop a profound sense of self and confidence that comes through feeling competent. They learn that they can interact with the world around them and have an impact on it.
This article is a great overview of the benefits of Practical Life activities!
This article is a great overview of the benefits of Practical Life activities!
Labels: Montessori Method
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
I love receiving daily updates from Brian Johnson. He reads self-help books and synthesizes them into brief summaries and videos. A lot of the concepts he covers are things that I grappled with in my twenties--things that now enable me to set ambitious goals and break them down into smaller next steps.
One of the updates from last week is still something I'm thinking about:
------from Brian Johnson------
Monday, February 23, 2015
A couple weeks ago at church, the minister started to do a sermon about being happy with what you have. She then realized that she wanted to talk more about identifying the things you want to bring into your life and making a plan for how to get them.
She asked us to make a "jealousy map" by writing the names of the people we were jealous of, the specific qualities/things we were jealous of, and what it might look like for us to bring that quality/thing into our lives.
I immediately thought back to my twenties when I harbored lots of jealousy for the people around me. I was jealous of friends who were prettier than I was, more creative, more fashionable, came from wealthier families--the list goes on!
But I was hard-pressed to think of anything that I'm jealous of now. I realized that two things were at play:
- Getting married and being in a long-term, nurturing relationship has helped me shed the insecurities I used to feel about not being pretty enough or cool enough. It's hard to know whether these have gone away because of the strength and security I get from marriage or from the maturity that comes from getting older--but either way, I'm glad they're gone!
- I've spent the last 15 years creating the kind of life I want to have. I've found my way toward meaningful work, I found my life partner, we were fortunate enough to bring two healthy children into the world, and we have a home filled with figurative and literal light.
And I'm settling into this life more and more with each passing day. My job is becoming less overwhelming as the weeks go by, and the boys are getting more and more fun (I've confessed before that I am not an infant/toddler kind of person!).
I just want to be sure to savor this time in our lives because I know it's going to go by quickly. I watch my friends' children growing up on Facebook, and I can't believe how fast it happens. There are children I taught as 3rd graders (which feels like just yesterday!) and they are suddenly going into high school.
The other night I asked Matt what we should do to make sure we fully appreciate and embrace the time we have with our young children. He said we should keep on doing what we're doing--dinners together, playing together on the weekends--but we should also prioritize vacations and travel together to create those fun memories and experiences together. We're trying to decide if we want to spend six months abroad when the boys are a little older or if we just want to go on smaller vacations throughout the year. Or maybe both! The trip we took to San Francisco during Fall Break was an amazing time to experience the city through the eyes of our children and spend a ton of fully-engaged, quality time together.
Image from the S. Carey living room concert Matt signed us up to host
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
There are many paths my life could have taken. If I didn't go into the field of preK-12 education, I might have been a gay rights lawyer. Or a dancer.
Yes, I have a not-so-secret passion for dancing. In fact, I was a cheerleader for eight years of my life (all the way through varsity) just because I loved the dancing part. I couldn't stomach the rest of it, so I quit and joined the swim team in 11th grade.
But dancing! I love it. And I've been thinking about ways to reconnect with it.
The other day, I remembered that many years ago, I used to daydream about having a "dance studio" in my home--an entire room dedicated to dance. Our current house already feels packed to the gills, so I thought about how I could possibly make this happen for myself.
And then the idea hit me. What if I replaced our closet doors with glass doors? Instant dance studio! There's just enough room between our closet and our bed to dance a little.
And so my birthday gift to myself this year will be my glass door dance studio and four weeks of classes at Ballet Austin. I'm going to learn the choreography to a terrible song (but it's an awesome dance!). I'm super-excited about. Specifically, I'm excited to get some movement back into my body. I really am starting to feel stiffer and stiffer as the years pass by.
Luckily the dance class isn't until April, so there's still time to save up for the glass doors. We only allocate a certain amount to spend on our house each month. Last month it was Matt's desk from IKEA. This month it's a jungle gym for Tate and Henry in the backyard. Next month might be these sculptures from Etsy. And April can be the glass doors?!?
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Yesterday's post reminded me of a book I bought many, many years ago. Although I've cleared out a lot of the books I'll never read again, I did save several of my self-help books that I never made it through. Change the Way You See Everything through Asset-Based Thinking is one of those books.
I think it's exactly what I need to focus on right now, both in my professional and my personal life.
Just think what could be possible if people focused their attention on:
- Opportunities rather than problems
- Strengths more than weaknesses
When you decrease your focus on what is wrong (deficit-based thinking) and increase your focus on what is right (Asset-Based Thinking), you build enthusiasm and energy, strengthen relationships, and move people and productivity to the next level.
- What can be done instead of what can't
Monday, February 9, 2015
Last Friday, Matt was out of town and I was alone with both boys. I ordered dinner via Favor, which is my new favorite way to "make a clearing" and reduce the stress in my life. (Full Disclaimer: My brother-in-law works for favor, but my affinity for them is completely objective!)
Right when the delivery arrived, Henry came running out of the restroom. He had nothing but a shirt on, and he was exclaiming, "Mama! I have poop on my foot!"
The details of how that happened are not relevant to my point, so I'll spare you the gory details....
Anyway, as I was helping Henry clean up the mess, he asked, "Are you going to be mad about it, Mama?" I assured him that I wasn't going to be mad at all, but his comment left me wondering: Why is it that Henry would even think I would get mad?
I work really hard not to get mad when Henry spills water all over the floor, breaks a glass, or drops food. I remain calm and help him figure out how to clean it up.
But there are lots of other times when Henry probably feels me getting mad at him: when he's taking forever to climb into his car seat because he's messing around with anything and everything in the car; when he hurts Tate or an animal or a plant; when he won't do something I'm asking him to do, such as brush his teeth.
And it connected to something that his teacher said at our last parent conference. She explained that she thinks that Henry sometimes makes bad choices because he sees himself as a person who makes bad choices.
Is this partly because I make it so clear (so often) when he is making a bad choice? Do I make him feel like a person who makes bad choices?
And--on the other side of things--how often does he feel like he's making good choices? That he's a person who makes good choices?
I spent the rest of the night trying to point out the positive. "Henry, remember earlier when you held open the door for me at school? That made me feel so good! You are such a kind person!" "Henry, you asked Tate for his necklace so nicely! And you said 'thank you' when he gave it to you! You are so kind."
And our night was amazing. Even though it was only one night, it was enough to inspire me to pay more attention (again) to the ratio of my positive to negative interactions with Henry. I'm definitely going to have negative interactions with him. I'm going to have to tell him that there's not time to make applesauce before bed and that I didn't like it when he ripped the leaf off the plant. But even those things I can convey as positively as possible. And I can overshadow those negative interactions with a ton of positive ones. I've heard that the ideal ratio of positive to negative is 4:1.
And what would happen if I would transfer this concept into the rest of my life? What if I pushed four positive thoughts into my head for every negative thought?
I'm feeling pulled to do some real self-work. When I was living on my own in my early and mid-twenties, I used to read a lot of self-help books and loved how they pushed me to be a better person. Marriage, homeownership, motherhood, and my career seem to have de-priortized the intentional time I used to set aside to help myself grow as a person. Of course all of those things also help me grow as a person, but I see real value in setting aside separate time for introspection.